valentine {still+life}

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

     Elizabeth Barrett Browning

monday mash up, february 13

The simple fact that this collage exists makes me so happy. I lurve Lightroom. We've become really good friends lately, but I still have so much to learn about it. For this, I'll take a class. Maybe this summer when I can devote some attention to it. So I made this collage in Lightroom, and I think I'm slowly, slowly coming to terms with the death of Picnick. So ha!

We had a great weekend; how was yours? I got to spend a lot of time in the studio figuring some things out. I calibrated my lenses and fiddled with some of the exposure problems I've been having. Slowly, slowly, I'm getting there. Neel came with me to take the pictures I needed for last week's Project 52 (The theme was culture, and the blog post about it will come on Wednesday.), and then we ran some errands together. If Wait, Wait Don't Tell Me is on, I could ride around in the car all day. Neel finished the destruction of the playstructure, and our yard looks SO much bigger!

We went French-ish for dinner with mussels and brie and crusty bread. I am totally digging our tradition of Saturday night dinners. Callum loves it too, and we're thinking of doing themes. Greek one week, Indian another. Callum suggested Irish too. After dinner it snowed! And thundered! Thunder-snow. Crazytown. It didn't really stick, but it's all we've had this winter. I'll take what I can get. When we got up Sunday morning, it must have snowed in the night. Another tiny bit, but enough to make doggie footprints on the back step. Oh, and we watched Julie and Julia, but fast forwarded through the Julie bits. The Julia stuff is the best part anyway.

Laundry is SO annoying right now. Our dryer sort of dries stuff. It just doesn't get hot, so it takes about seven cycles. If someone can find me some time, I'll get right on replacing it.

So it's super cold and Sunday we had a fire in the fireplace and I made roast chicken. This might be another tradition. Can you get tired of roast chicken?

Oh, and I made a watermark! I'm still getting the kinks out, but you'll see it below. Let me know what you think. And let me know which of those two photos I should use for my best friends Project 52 shot. Or both?!

So that's us. What happened for you guys this weekend? Anybody have anything fun to report?

five things, february 10th edition

1. I think I have felt SO surrounded by love this week. I honeslty think I've lost track of how many Liebster Bolg Awards I've won. I'm not trying to sound braggy, I promise. I've had one of those head down kinds of weeks, not in a bad way, just busy. But I've felt the love out there, I promise. First, I want to thank (and perhaps send you to) the people who were kind enough to think of me. Tina of Colour Living, Catherine of Paper Peony and Jenni of Jarfly Designs. Not to mention the wonderful Chi, who wrote about so many of us so eloquently on her blog Carousel. And I can't forget Janine of Shambolic Living who nominated me for a 7X7 Award. I've been a bad blogging friend. I'm going to admit right up front that I haven't had the time to pay much attention to what these awards entail, but by my count am I now supposed to introduce you to 27 blogs? YIPES! I'll point you in the direction of one or two, I promise.
2. I think the best part of my week was playing basketball with Callum in the kitchen on Thursday night.
3. I think I never knew that my posts this week would generate such a response! The playstructure (sniff) and the runner. I do owe Erin the thank-you for the hem tape. It worked much better on the burlap than sewing would have, I think. I've already spilled on it. I'm trying to be zen. Life is going to be full of spills, especially when there's food involved. I like my dining room so much better now that you guys like it too! And our table is from one of my favorite stores ever. It's rosewood, from India. The table, not the store. Whenever we move to someplace new, and it's been a loooooong time since we've done that, we try to purchase something that we'll keep forever that will remind us of where we lived or who we knew. That table is from our time in San Diego (not India!). Teri @ Beach City Life Style and Theresa @ inspirationCooperative, you're not that far away from it! It's called Cokas Diko and is in Del Mar (well, Solana Beach), actually (although they have a shop in Santa Rosa too.). Just writing about it makes me homesick. Anyway, we bought our condo from Ana and David, two of the owners, and they've always taken such good care of us. We have several things from there, and each one makes me think of them and our time there. Trying not to get too, too sad. But there you are. Our table. Ana has killer taste. Go check them out. We have dinner at this table nearly every night (I'm not going to deny a dinner-in-front-of the TV here and there!), and I was so excited to read Noreen's post on beauty of everyday life about getting boys to read. Reading dinners! What a great idea. Callum is already a pretty good reader, but he has so much homework this year that I can see it slipping a bit. Why not bring a book to the table?
4. I think that the little gift you see pictured here is tangible proof of what a wondeful community we have. Tori from One Eleven Studio made them, and I won them for a suggestion for a new blog series she's working on. Aren't they beautiful? What a bright shining light in my week. (And I think I own Annie of insideolgy a house tour, but since she's been skiing all week, she'll have to wait.) It's a great and meaningful group these writers, creaters and wonderful women. This list is by no means exhaustive, but I think you should go check out some of the wonderful people I love popping in on everyday. Emily from Peck Life, Heather from It's So Suburban, Heather from Home again Jog and Holly. I need to stop, but it's hard. I love you all.
5. I think that there might be a bonus post this weekend. Not to get you to keep checking and all, but I have to finish my Project 52, and I just didn't have time this week. (But are you following Leah from sang the bird on Istagram? She says she needs a new camera, but she sure is rocking what she's got!) It's something I'm really excited about, so you may just see two Project 52 posts next week. We'll see. Happy Weekend, peeps. Love you, my ducks.

good bye old friend {life}

Ove the weekend, Neel started taking down Callum's old play structure. He has great plans for the space and the wood, but I don't need to tell you what a bittersweet moment this was for all of us. Let's face it, more for me and Callum than for Neel.

Of course I had to take pictures. It wasn't as hard as I expected. Saying good-bye. Callum played here, but we tend to have a front-yard neighborhood, so he wasn't on it as much as some kids are on their play structures. Still. I do not do well with this sort of thing.
What we still joke about is how, when we first built the darn thing, the instructions said it would take three hours. What three hours of the week+ it actually took were they refering to?

Neel is an unsentimental person, so in a matter of moments the place was coming down.

Beauty diminished. Memories not so.

Just when I was getting really sad, Callum had the great idea to keep the steering wheel!

He's a lot like me.

runner {life}

I made something!

I know, I know, I still haven't written about the curtains, but I'm just as excited about this. I just couldn't wait! It's the first time I've pinned something on Pinterest, decided I could do something for cheaper, and went out and did it!

I made a table runner! I have a dining room board on Pinterest because frankly, much as I love it, our dining room just isn' there yet. I'll do the full tour some day, but I don't like our chairs and it just feels dark in there to me. Right at New Years we replaced some seriously beat up and ugly sconces, so we're making progress by baby steps. B A B Y steps. I adore our table, but I'm trying to brighten things up in there. When I saw this burlap table runner, I thought I could make something just as nice for cheaper and nicer for anything I've seen looking around.

I think it looks pretty nice in there during the day and the night.

When I mentioned the curtains, several folks mentioned hem tape, or something called Stitch Witchery, and I used that instead of sewing. Yay me. And thank you, whoever you were!

I tried it with Neel's mom's Limoges.

And I tried it with our everyday stuff too. I think I pretty much love it with both.

We've started making a comittment to a nice Saturday night supper together, and I wanted to have the runner done for our dinner.

When I was a kid, Saturday night dinner was a big deal at my house. My mom and dad would have a bottle of wine, and I'd get Coke in a wine glass for a special treat. Cooking together in the kitchen, we'd listen to Al Jarreau, Phoebe Snow and Manhattan Transfer. This past Saturday, my dad went to a Manhattan Transfer concert, so we popped a MT playlist on the SONOS, and I felt transported back in time.

Saturday night's all right with me.

monday mash up, february 6

I swear we are still recovering from the holidays. All we want to do is sit around and watch movies. That is very unlike this family. Oh we did some stuff this weekend, but our default lately seems to be to sloth. We're all suffering a Superbowl hangover this morning, and it seems like Callum is getting sick again. What the what!? I didn't get nearly as much done as I wanted, but I did play around with making some collage templates in Lightroom (not that I used them here, mind you).You'll see a project of Neel's on the blog this week, and one of mine too, and sometime this afternoon, I'll load my final pick for last week's Project 52. This week's theme is Culture, perhaps something that is part of our family's culture or pop culture. I've had a thought about this, but if you want to weigh in with ideas, please do.

Friday night we took Callum out to celebrate his 2nd quarter report card. He chose hibachi. We were all stunned. Kidding. Saturday was basketball in the morning and a nice supper that evening. We're trying. We caught up on Project Runway and Top Chef Texas, but I'm scared to talk about it! Yesterday I tried to get some stuff done. Hmmm. Little accomplished, but sometimes you have to stop everything and cuddle your kid. Neel did manage to fix the light in our foyer, and we're SO happy about that. For starters, it was pretty dark in there, but also, that little chandelier is original to the house and so lovely. It's nice to have it back. We ended up at an impromptu Superbowl party for the first half of the game last night, and finished things off at home with meatball subs (Neel's choice). I have to say, the highlight of the weekend was the fact that Neel and Callum watched these videos over and over and laughed themselves silly each time. Like, until-they-cried silly.

My to-do list feels long this week, plus our drier seems to be broken as does one of our cars! Happy Monday, everybody. Woo-hoo. Are you as excited to be up and at 'em as I am?

five things, february 3rd edition

1. I think that all things being equal this turned out to be a pretty good week.
2. I think that I have a lot to do this weekend. All fun. I need to (finally) pick some photos for Moo cards, I'm considering adding watermarks to my pictures, I have some blog posts for next week to write (yes to A Day in the Life?) and some photos to take. Some fun stuff around the house too. I love weekends that fill me with anticipation. We have basketball and of course the grocery store and some house cleaning. But it's all good. Oh, and the SUPERBOWL. Not sure many of my readers care about that the way I do though!
3. I think in the interest of full disclosure I need to tell you that Lucy and Thea are actually far from best friends. Those two have gotten into some fur-flying fights. The most recent while we were away a few weeks ago. It is, quite frankly, terrifying. Thea is actually still limping (might be a sympathy ploy, because she's been checked at the vet and determined to be fine), and we're getting a behaviorist in to tell us what's what. They can be so loving. Falling asleep literally on top of one another, and then someone's feelings get hurt and the gloves come off. We're trying to figure out what to do.
4. I think my photography goals for the month are to really pull together everything I learned in the class I took last month, tie it in with my camera and work on getting images that are stronger coming straight out of the camera. Nailing exposure and focus, rather than composition. I have some exciting projects coming up, and I want to be as strong and skilled as I possibly can for them.
5. I think these are some mad gorgeous props, aren't they? Not mine. From the workshop back in December. I love the varying shades of blue with the texture of the table and the burlap. It's fun on Fridays to go back through all my pictures and pull one out for you. I still have a lot to share! Hope you guys have a great weekend. I'll try to have another P52 shot for you and I'll be around on Instagram. xoxo

project 52:5 {life}

I think sometimes that we I strive so hard to put the perfect pictures out there for everyone to see that I get caught up in results. I'm not thrilled with the, well, results of our Project 52 this week. I've still been working on my camera settings, like exposure and white balance and focus. Yipes! And it's been a hard week to work on this theme. But we made some attempts, and I thought I'd show you the out takes for a change. This one was Callum's favorite and it may yet be the winner. Still, I have through the weekend, so if it changes, I'll let you know!

When I learned of the theme Best Friends (and no objects!), I thought of a couple of things. Callum would tell you that aside from his BFFs here on our block, he has no real "besties." The two boys who are in our neighborhood go to school with him, one is two years older and one is in Callum's grade. They ride into school together four days a week and play together every weekend. When Callum started his new school last year, having J. the younger of the two boys, in his homeroom was the best of blessings. Part of me wants him to branch out more, and truthfully he does. He's more of a free agent when it comes to friendships. Not tied to any one guy. I'm cool with that. And while I'd love to capture the special relationship that these three boys have, I knew it would take some bribery and a command from their mother. That just wasn't happening this week.

So what to do? Callum and his iPod? They're certainly tight. But. No objects. And...well. Even Callum knows you can't be best friends with your technology (But please don't tell my phone which is suddenly and miraculously working again.). He vetoed that pretty promptly. And I knew that as colse as he and Neel are, I didn't want them to be my subject either. For one thing, while we're super-tight with our son and say things like, "We're best buds," to him, we don't actually believe in being best friends with your children. For another, Neel and Callum have often been the subject of my photos. You can see them if you click on the main photography page. So when I asked Callum, he picked Lucy. The beagle.

They are pretty tight. Neel brought five month old Lucy home one early December in a copy-paper box, and Callum was beyond thrilled. Beyond. He loves all our dogs, but these too have some fun. Lucy is totally goofy, all beagle, and that has to appeal to a twelve-year old. Lucy is the one who snuck out of her crate to wish Callum a happy birthday in the middle of the night one night. Lucy is the one he hides under the covers on the sofa. I have quite a few pictures of these two too. Remember my Eleven for Eleven? Well, Callum asked for Lucy, but I wanted to try something different. I just didn't know what. We thought we'd get them together and see what happened.

The other dogs were having none of it.

Violet, who is the neediest and most loving of the three, had to be in on every step of the action.

This worried Callum, who finally admitted he felt closer to Lucy. Lucy, however was in no mood to be photographed.

Violet just wants to love and be loved.

We were surprised when Thea showed up. She's Violet's mom and a bit of a loner. She puts herself to bed in her crate right around 9 p.m. every night, and she always reminds me of a line from Enchanted April, she wants to spend her days thinking of better times and better men. But she loves us too, in her own worried way.

We tried some outside and Lucy was still really wound up. And Violet still had to get in on all of the action.

Violet needs loving and Thea wants to be alone.

It's a crazy menagerie, but they're all ours. It's our family.

Although maybe these are some good best friends pictures. It's like this every night. Asleep together on the same bed. Often one on top of the other. Three-dog night.

So those are the outtakes. I look at these and feel like none of them are great photographs. There are elements I like in many, but mostly I see how much work I have to do. But still, does every picture I take have to be a great and perfect photograph? No way! Sometimes it's nice to just get some pictures of a boy and his dogs. We'll try again this weekend, I imagine. It's been a busy week. I'm swamped all day today. Booked back to back with appointments (Lunch at school with Callum!), and I never get to leave the house!

Thanks for dropping in you guys. I have to admit, as I was writing this post, I had this image of Erin saying, "Pupppppppies!"

Oh, also. I'm doing a monthly "Day in the Life" project, and our January day was last Sunday. I haven't even looked at the photos yet, much let edited them. I'm torn between doing a post on it and just throwing it up in the photogallery. Any thoughts?

tweaked {life}

I could never be a food blogger. I think I'd love to be a food blogger, but I don't think I have it in me.

When I first started blogging, I posted my versions of recipies for our meals all the time. I was forever titling posts, "Not a Food Blog, I Promise." Or "Still Not a Food Blog."

I should have known back then just how hand-in-hand food and photography went for me.

But still. I can't ever consider myself a food blogger. I am a cookbook devourer and a recipe hound, but I am not a recipe generator. I envy those who can pull together a delicious meal from a quick peek into cabinet or fridge, but that's just not me. In cooking I guess, I'm a follower, not a leader. I need a foundation to build upon. Give me the bricks and mortar and I'll make a castle, but I need to know about those bricks first, please. I'm a tweaker.

When it comes to tweaking, I almost can't help myself.

That's why I love recipes like the one for this tart that I've been promising you. Basic foundation, with endless posibility. The inspiration is from Lynne Rossetto Caspar's cookbook The Splendid Table's How to Eat Supper (and if you like deviled eggs, this cookbook has just about the best recipe, ever.). She takes a puff pastry, thawed, and creates a tart bottom by folding up the sides and places it on an ungreased cookie sheet. I mixed some greens with her dressing, which was garlic, zest of a lemon, salt and pepper and about a tablespoon of olive oil. Spread the greens on the puff pastry along with my chosen veggies: red onion, green seedless grapes and roasted beets. Bake for about 15 minutes at 500 degrees (F).

While it's baking, mix some shredded cheese (about 1 cup -  she calls for Asiago, which I didn't have, so I used Monterey Jack) with about 1/4 cup cream. Spread the cheese over the tart and bake until melted, about 6 or so more minutes. You'll have to let it sit a bit out of the oven to let the cheese firm up, but hello.

Puff pastry is the kind of thing I tend to dread working with, but I forget that it can be like crepes, a foundation for all sorts of wonderfulness. LRC had three suggestions for various tarts depending on the season, and I managed to pull from all of them, and a little from my own pantry too. Tweaking, to my mind, is not such a bad thing! For more shots from Tweaked, head over to the Still + Life facebook page!

tea and toast {life}

So I told you I'd spend a little time behind the scenes from my bokeh shoot from last week. There's not that much to tell, really! Still, I'm in a self-indulgent mood, so I thought I'd take you through my thought process much like we went through the more technical aspects of bokeh last week. First though, let's get technical. For all of these photos, I shot using Big Daddy (duh) and my 50mm 1.8. I like to call it El Cheapo. We tend to name things around here. Can you tell? Annie asked a really good question last week in the discussion in the comments that just made my heart melt with happiness: Is a 50mm (35mm equivalent) prime lens better than using my zoom lens at 50mm? Can someone tell me that? Am thinking of getting a 50m lens as you all talk about how great they are but just wondering why I can't use my zoom on 50mm. Well, hm. Adorama has a highly technical explanation about they whys and why nots here, but frankly, I didn't have it in me to get all the way through it. I skimmed. What I will say is this. For Nikons and Canons at least, the 50mm lenses can get you much lower (wider) apertures than your kit lens can. Therefore more light and more bokeh. Plus, for me at least, prime lenses are just fun!

Much like Erin said in the comments from that same post, I tend to like to shoot wide open (lower aperture number), but I'm trying to train myself not to do that all the time. Also, some lenses have a sweet spot, where their images just look so, so good. For some it might be at 1.8 (the widest mine and Erin's will go), but for mine, I'm starting to think it might be closed down a little (or a higher number), like at 2.2 maybe. The photo above was shot at f/9 because I was shooting from above and trying to get most of the shot in focus. Am I losing you?

This photo, for example, was shot at 2.8. See all the creamy bokeh? Nice huh? Those small apertures give you a teeny-tiny focal plane from front to back, so when your number is small and you're wide open, you only have a small slice of the image that will be in focus. Limiting? Yes. Challenging? That too. But fun.

To give you some context, I wanted to show you a quick shot of my tiny studio. I have two places in the house where I really like to take pictures. One is on our living room coffee table. You'll likely see some shots from there tomorrow. The other is my studio. Less than ideal, but it's mine. It's my office too. The original Blue Rain Room, first name of this blog. To take this picture, I'm standing at my desk, where my lap top lives. To camera left are the doors into our bedroom (an addition, this used to be a bedroom at the back of the house, and now it's a pass-through room). To camera right are bookshelves with props and yarn, and to the right and just behind me is the door to the upstairs landing/hall. That window you see is the only window in the room. As you can see, it's not ideal, but it's a mostly dedicated space and generally a Tim Gunn moment: Make it work, people. Would I love a dedicated space that was a bit larger and had more light? Well of course? If our sunporch didn't house an air hockey table, three dogs and soon-to-be Neel's seed factory, that might work, but for now, this is very good.

For the shot just above the studio shot and for this one (as well as the one I submitted for the P52), I had the white sheet you see hanging there pulled down, to diffuse the bright light shining in that day. As I went about my work that morning, knowing that I was going to set up the bokeh shoot that day, I let my mind play around with different ideas for the still life I wanted to do. I hadn't been feeling well, so I thought it would be nice to do a shot of a mug of tea. I quickly abandoned the idea of trying to capture steam rising from the tea as too complicated to take on for that day. Technically I wanted to play with bokeh, and also some of the things we're working on for our class, like spot metering and back button focusing. What did I want the shot to represent? Comfort. Warmth and well-being. As I gathered props, I knew I wanted the "L" mug I got from Anthropologie because I thought I would look pretty in the bokeh. I thought with a mug that vibrant, you'd still get a sense of a mug of tea, even blurred. I thought a lot about my mom and how she used to make me tea and toast every morning before school. Constant Comment. So a teabag, some lemon. Toast. I wanted a sense of rising up from a breakfast table or afternoon tea. I spent a lot of time playing with the metering and the aperture and that warm, diffused light. Then I got antsy.

Perhaps a little tired of bokeh. (Remember, shot at higher f/stops for focus of more items in the shot.)

When I pulled up the sheet and snapped this shot and others like it, I was happy. The bright light presents a whole host of challenges because it's pretty harsh, but happy me! The clarity of light is really appealing. It's the kind of light I like to use. When I shot using the sheet as a diffuser, I had the light behind the scene, and once I lifted the sheet, I turned my table so that I was side lit. Just to give me some more flexibility.

I tried to embrace the harsh lines and shadows.

Through out all of the shots, I tried to view them as a tablescape someone just stepped away from. As if you've just pushed away from the table. Perhaps your phone rang or your child called or you realized you were running late.

Ultimately, I'm not entirely sure if I executed my vision. The ones I ended up loving had very little to do with a clarity of light or bokeh. Just a mug of tea. But as exercises go, it was a good one. Envisioning a shoot from start to finish. Concept to completion. These are the photos I love to take. The ones that take an ordinary moment and turn it into something quite otherwise. Something extraordinary. Something that makes you think, yes, I know that moment. Or, yes, I want that moment for me.

And when I got upstairs to clean up, look how much the light had changed.

monday mash up, january 30

Hey gang! How was your weekend?

We rested, rested, rested and I'm feeling much better. We all are. Callum and I got over the bug much faster than Neel, and I'm convinced that it's because we took time to stop and rest. Neel's at about where we are recovery-wise, and we caught it a whole four days after he did. So ha. I actually woke up feeling better on Saturday, but after a quick flurry of errand running and cleaning, I totally lost my mojo. We came home and watched episodes of Emergency! all afternoon. I know none of you young chicklets will remember Emergency! But Neel and I grew up on it. I remember impatiently waiting for the Lawerence Welk Show to end each Saturday evening before Emergency! would come on. Some weeks, I'd think, "Oh, I'll just watch the Lawrence Welk show and the time will go faster." People. The time did not go faster! Emergency! follows the early paramedic program in the 1970s in Los Angeles on calls as they save lives. It's totally awesome. Last night Roy and Johnny (those are the paramedics) rescued a baby who was locked and napping in the backseat of his mom's car while she was getting her hair done, and when she came out of the beauty salon she totally chewed them out for getting him out of a hot car! And the people in the 70s look so old. They'll be on a call, and Neel and I will think the guy is 55 and having a heart attack, and it'll turn out that he's 24 and having a drug overdose. One summer when I was away at camp, I missed my favorite episode of Emergency! (We got the TV Guide each week so I'd know what was coming up.), and my dad wrote me a long letter describing what happened. He used acronyms for the names of everybody, and the one I remember the most is LAC for L.A. Cop. So everytime the L.A. Cop shows up now, I automatically think, LAC. Back then I had the hugest crush on Dr. Kelly Brackett, but now I'm thinking Captain Stanley is pretty dreamy. Callum loves these, and we've been having a blast sitting on the sofa under all the blankets and a hound or two and watching a marathon of them.

Callum had a ton of make-up work to do on Sunday so we lit a fire in the living room, and I'm working on a day in the life project (lots of lounging and reading pictures, I'm afraid). When I get the galleries organized on the photography page, I'll let you know. And today the bottom braces go on. Woo. Hoo. Smoothies and soup for lunch and dinner. Probably for the rest of the week. The best part is that he's getting his expander out so the roof of his mouth will be free at last! And aren't those UPS trucks cute? The theme for this week's Project 52 is "Best Friends," and I'd totally use that, but she said we can't use objects. Has to be people. Boo.

So check back tomorrow for some outtakes from my bokeh shoot, and one other thing. I'm still so irritated about Picnick. I use Lightroom for 90+% of my photo editing, and I can do collages, etc. in Photoshop (I have Elements), but I have to say, nothing beat the ease of Picnick for dragging and dropping and getting collages on the blog. As Violet would say (first left on the bottom), "I'm mad." Anyhoo, I did today's collage from FotoFlexer. They don't have all the collages I use, but most of them, so it might be an option. I found them from this blog post on the SITS Site, and there was even more info in the comments. Just sayin'.

Oh! Wait! Project Runway gals?! I totally thought Mondo should have won that challenge, but Michael's face was SO happy. And I won't miss whiny, mopy April. Anybody watching Top Chef Texas out there?

five things, january 27 edition

1. I think that sometimes no matter how hard you try, catching colds are inevitable. Although I can't remeber the last time the three of us were all sick at the same time.
2. I think you should check out this post by my nearly neighbor Carrie. Some of you know about my (not-so-secret) desire to go to Haiti and spend time in an orphanage there. Carrie's sister did just that and has some great stories and photos to share.
3. I think, even though we're only four weeks in, I'm still kicking it on that side-dish thing. I'm making an effort. This photo is from Wednesday night, when we had roasted fennel and artichoke courtesy February's Martha Stewart Living. It was super simple and all sorts of awesomeness. Thank you Martha.
4. I think last night doesn't count though. Sick nights get a pass on side dishes, right?
5. I think I can't thank you enough for all of your kind and thoughtful comments this week. I commented on Emily's blog that Callum always get's cranky before he gets sick. I wonder if that's what happened to me?! First, I want to say how much getting comments here means to me. When I was (a-hem) e-mailing Squarspace about my frustration this week I talked about how commenting builds community, and that feels so true for me. When I get the ping in my email that I've received a comment from one of you, it leaves me almost breathless! Really! It's a total Sally Field moment, each and every time. So to my regular commenters, you are the bread to my butter, my daily inspiration. And to all of you readers who sit quietly in the shadows, I love each and every one of you too. I can feel you out there, lifting me up. (Except maybe Mark.) But on a side note, don't be afraid! Come on it! We don't bite! And second, I'm listening to what some of you have said about some things you'd like to see. A house tour? Sure thing! Some more photography stuff? Well, I bored you to tears yesterday, didn't I?! I have a tart and some curtains to show you. I still have restaurants and jewelry. So much to share. It's nice to have friends to talk with, isn't it? Have a good weekend everyone!

Project 52:4 {life}

So this week's assignment for our Project 52 was Bokeh. Bokeh refers to the out-of-focus portion of a photograph that's achieved by using a shallow depth of field.

This is the moment when I imagine I'll lose everyone. The folks who've been studying photography and know all about bokeh will groan. Not this again. And those who are just picking up their cameras will say, Bokeh? What the what? I remember the first time that we worked on shallow depth of field in my photography classes as MOCA, and it was such a revelation. The idea of deliberately blurring portions of your photograph was thrilling to me. I'm so funny about photography. I feel like I'm trucking along nicely and then I'll stumble over bits of information that it seems like everyone already knows about, and then I feel so stupid! It was like that when I learned that this blur was called bokeh in this article. I still think it's a great description. Wikipedia does a pretty good job too.

Basically, with the camera, bokeh is achieved through a shift in your apeture or f/stop. My brain does not like processing this information very much, so I'm sure I'll do a terrible job of explaining it, but here goes. Aperture controls how wide open the lens gets, and a wider aperture, (which is actually a lower number - I know, forehead-smacking time), means a shallower depth of field, which creates bokeh. A wider apeture lets in more light, which also makes it appealing.

In these photos, the focus is near the front of the photo, on the toast, creating a blur for the tea cup. That's the effect I was going for. A hint of the idea of tea, promised in the blur.

I had a lot of fun with this assignment. Despite the cold I was catching closing in, I tried to pull together some of the disparate threads of things I've been working on with learning Big Daddy and what I've been doing in my photography class. Plus, it was fun to focus, for awhile, on something that I just wanted to do. No laundry folding or writing or blog work or dusting. Just exploring the camera and putting together a still life. Exploring a project from concept through completion. At first I was worried that I wasn't getting bokeh "right." So many people were posting beautiful photos of sparkly lights (If you want to get some great shots of bokeh, aim your camera into a tree on a sunny day, focus on one point,  and let the leaves and sun blur together.), but then I relaxed and just went with it. I know what I want to take picutres of! Next week, on Tuesday likely, I'll take you behind the scenes in my thought process as I put together this mini-shoot.

But back to bokeh! I thought I'd dig through some of my old photos to illustrate the point a bit. The quality may not be the greatest in some of these, but you'll (maybe) get the point.

In the first photo, we have nice bokeh, that lovely blur hinting of a scene outside. The second blurs the rose to bring the scene outside into detail.

These two shots play with bokeh in a natural setting. Hydrangea vines along our fence. I took these pictures early last spring, March maybe, when I was really starting to play with a shallow DOF and enjoying how the blur of the fence highlighted the early buds on the vines.

Bokeh is often used for portraiture, as you can see in this first picture of baby Landon. The blur in the background highlights Landon's face, but by closing up the aperture (by raising the f/stop) both boys and the grass are in focus, making the full effect about two brothers playing on the lawn on a summer day.

Bored yet? Confused? If you're not in full manual mode on your camera, switch it to Aperture Priority (either A or AV). This means that while you choose the aperture or f/stop, the camera will choose the shutter speed to help you get the correct exposure. That way you can play around with your depth of field and have some fun. Another important point (and trust me, this bokeh thing gets way more complex than I have any interest in being) is that distance between you and your subject and your subject and what you're blurring will make a difference as well. But I'm not going to say any more about that...just go have some fun. You can't do it wrong, you know!

we went for a walk {life}

There really hasn't been any sort of winter to speak of. I posted a comment on someone's blog yesterday that I should stop railing against this fact and embrace the warmth. On the drive home from school, I asked Callum if he wanted to go on a walk with me and my camera. He was lukewarm on the idea. He wanted to get going on his homework. Luckily I have some walk-y neighbors.

When Rebecca texted asking if some of us wanted to walk, I ditched Callum in a heartbeat. But not Big Daddy. As you can see from the first photo, I kept falling behind.

Noreen does such an amazing job of taking us along with her on her runs or her early morning rambles. I honestly don't know how she does it! I need to stop and pause and think too much.

We really do live in a beautiful part of the world, and I feel so lucky to be surrounded by so much stunning water. I love the juxtaposition here of the swing (can you see it?) and the calm water of the river and the cranes of the International Terminals in the distance. This stretch of river is so soothing to me. When I get to missing mountains too much, I should come here for a recharge.

I want to thank you all for your kind and sweet comments yesterday. Cath's right. I was having a pity party! And I look at her gorgeous blog, and think what?! You're having a pity party?! Come on! And Seamane's comment cracked me up. Duh. She's my editor, so you know she can boil anything down to essentials. Still, I think you can only generate momentum for so long before you hit a moment and think, wait, is this it? Am I on the right path here? It's been such a crazy start to the year, and I feel pulled in so many directions with no real routine or rhythm. That's changing though, and I'm getting a routine down a bit better. I always feel better when I've got a system to work within.

And you're right. Waaay back when we were in Blogging Your Way (That class really did change so much for me, can I get an "amen?!"), I realized that the blogs I love to read are the ones that take me inside the author's life. And of the design or photography or other blogs I love, my favorite moments are when the author surprises us with a sneak peek behind the scenes of the great photo or the awesome design choices and gives us a glimpse into their private world. I knew that before; I just needed reminding. So here I am. And you're stuck with me, I suppose. Sorry!

I am excited to speak with Jackie's photography class. (Even though I told her that this new class could never be as cool as we were.) I love introspective projects like that. But still, I ask you. If you were coming to hear me speak, is there anything specific you'd like me to answer? Anything about my photography journey or my process right now that you'd like to hear?

Quiet night, calm water. Truly the golden hour. That gorgeous sunset sky boded well for a new day ahead. Callum's doing so much better. I got the nicest email from Squarespace about my blogging issues. Sometimes all that matters is that you know you've been heard, you know? I've started writing my to-do list the night before and after a few hours of work today, I'll spend some time taking pictures so you can see a Project 52 for tomorrow. I feel better, except I think I've caught Neel's cold (and it looks as if Joe Biden may have too, if you saw him on the State of the Union last night!). I have that loopy feeling that made me fuzzy-headed enough that when I went to grab a seltzer this morning I opened the dryer instead of the fridge! xoxo